So, I thought I had a genetics assignment due in about 9 hours that I hadn't started on and that I wasn't going to sleep. I checked my email and it's been pushed back to next week. I know what I'm doing before DBT tomorrow!

Basically, my body felt like it deflated, but in an awesome way. :D

So, I was checking my email and I saw that a classmate from high school found me on OkCupid. He messaged me about how he was so sorry for hurting me and such. Long story short, I liked him, he dated me, he liked my other friends more than me, I find out the hard way, everyone ends up hating him. Well, I can't say that I ever REALLY hated him. I mean, I wasn't happy with him and wasn't too sad when I never saw him after 9th grade, but I never wanted to castrate, murder, or cause any physical or emotional harm to him. Well, I can't say for 100% on the emotional harm, I did want him to get a taste of his own medicine, but he did. He claims that this has been haunting him for years. If that were true, that would be 9 years. He said he wished he could have protected me from the hurt I would endure later in life, or something like that. Seriously, he was 16, I was 14, we were way too young for anything like that. It was high school, for crying out loud!

This did make me realize something though. One day, pain does go away. Some pain won't go away 100%, but maybe one day, it will go down to a level that I can manage. More than anything else in this whole world, I want to be able to feel apathy toward the ones that caused my pain. Maybe I'm trying too hard to become apathetic, maybe this quest is hindering what's important to me. Maybe with the letter from the first person to ever break my heart will show me this: I have what it takes to get over all those who have crushed my heart. My heart is broken, but it's still there.

I was going to make a blog about how I hate when plans fall apart and how I was looking forward to going out tonight, but then I decided to take pictures of all the owl-related things I own.

( Yay owlies! )



And that's it for the owl stuff. I didn't post my two pairs of socks, skater shoes, or my "having a hoot" shirt, but that's because I forgot to.

I still want a Hello Kitty Owl, Owl sleep mask, Owl Patches, Owl Bra, headband, ...

Yeah, I like owls

Maybe. If the fat content didn't count as well, then I may go for it. If he's a trustworthy genie, then I'd eat everything on thisiswhyyourefat.com, OMG SEXY FOOD,  and PEZ

My realistic dream job: Work at LifeShare in Shreveport. Yes I think I'll get that job.

The job I literally dream about: Popping zits for a dermatologist's office. Nope, I never think I'll get that job.

Hmm, this is my piece of the internet where I can shout off whatever I feel like. I feel like talking about products today, yay!

So, The Beatles Rock Band. I've been wanting it for months, I didn't watch any media on it because I wanted to be excited and new to it when I first saw it and I have to say this: It's nothing short of amazing. I did read in one interview that this game was one Beatles related that Paul McCartney was excited to make. This game has made me realize how sexy John Lennon really was and how upset I am that he's dead. I know he was dead before I was born, DON'T REMIND ME! :(

Hmm, I had something I wanted to rant about that I wasn't really happy with, but I forgot what it was. Oh yeah, Zune. The Zune itself isn't too bad. I mean, I hate how unorganized it seems to get and how it just seems endlessly impossible to organize the 11,000 + songs that are on it, but the Zune program on the computer, the one similar to iTunes, is one of the worst. To be fair, I'm used to using iTunes. It's the version right before 8.0 released. I know it wasn't exactly 7.0, but I still liked it. The Zune format just takes so long to load and searches on too many levels for my taste. I mean, I just want to listen to "Hey Jude" over and over again, that shouldn't be too hard! Also, I don't like the fact I can't see how many times I've listened to the song. I don't care if I'm the only person that cares about that, I love it!

I'm not saying that the Zune is horrible, just the program is. To be fair, iTunes is heading that direction, so they are both about to be equally bad. I liked it when the music industry was more about making music and less about making money. Whatever, such is life.

Now, I'm going to change gears here. I know I said "products" at the beginning of my post, but now I want to talk about TV for a bit. Note to the readers not from the US: You may not have heard of some of these shows, so you may disregard this part if you like. Thank you. :D

If my readers here are like most people I know, then they doesn't watch much TV. But, I'm sure that at least some of my readers have watched TV or watched TV shows off of a website like hulu.com or something. Well, I'm sure you all know I love animation. Not JUST anime, but shows that are animated in general. I'm a pretty avid Adult Swim watcher and the show King of the Hill joined it some time ago. At first, I didn't really like it, but then I came to really enjoy the show as the characters grew and developed, which is pretty rare for an American-based show. Most shows take the absurdest route where any new viewer can pick up what's going on if they've never watched it before.

I looked it up on Wikipedia and saw that it had been on for 13 seasons. I saw that and thought to myself "Wow, it would be incredible if this show could be on for as long as The Simpsons has been." Not two days later, my dad was watching football on FOX and the trailer for the King of the Hill Series Finale aired. I was saddened by this, but I watched it. It was a good ending. I loved how the strained father/son relationship had finally come to an end and the main character, Hank Hill, could accept his son's talents and feel proud of him. It reminded me a bit of the Full House final episode, but in a less corny, more endearing way.

Well, not short after the final episode aired, I saw one reason I think why it was canceled. So that writer, actor and sometimes douchebag, Seth MacFarlane, could create a spin-off to his hit show Family Guy Don't get me wrong, I do like that show (sometimes), but really now? This means that he creates 3 of the 4 shows FOX currently airs in their "Animation Domination" block on Sunday.

Personally, when I first heard of a Family Guy spin-off, I thought it was just making fun of how many, many other hit TV shows had made very unsuccessful spin-offs in the past. But no, they really DID make a show. I'm very skeptical about how good it's going to be. I mean, I feel that maybe he will spread himself and his resources too thin and the quality of all of his shows will suffer greatly due to it. Well, I guess I will just have to wait and see.

Still though, I'm going to laugh my butt off if bombs and FOX will realize that they made the same mistake when they canceled Family Guy the first time.

That's what the song tells me anyway! Anyway, if you haven't heard yet, Rin Kagamine, the female counterpart of Vocaloid 02, has a song that I'm HOOKED on right now. It's called Meltdown and I love it!



Yeah it's not the original. That was linked previously. This one is pretty cool though!

But, it's gotten me to thinking about jumping into the core of a nuclear reactor. If that could really clean a person of their sins, I think there would be many more people jumping into them. If they are as cool as in the video, then I want to go!

Jason still has a thing for me, it would seem. I'm honestly not too sure how to react to that. I mean, the big factor in our breakup was that he thought I was unwilling to change and I thought he was being too distant from me, despite my best efforts of trying to smell better. Even so, I'm not about to just jump back into a relationship with him. I got most of my DVDs back, so I'm happy with that.

Honestly, guys just piss me off right now anyway. Yeah, I ranted about that previously, not worth the effort to do so again.

I'm going to bed now. :)

Why am I doing this? Because I want to and I can!

What's HOT:

- Final Fantasy Dissidia
- Google Chrome
- Products from LUSH, more specifically this one
- Rin Kagamine's Meltdown
- Owls

What's NOT:

- The Hannah Montana PSP pack
- Internet Explorer
- Guys in general
- Hypocrites
- Stress

So, I don't think my hot list needs any explanation other than I love that salt scrub!

My not list, I feel a bit more explanation may be needed.

First off, a lilac PSP? SWEET! A lilac PSP that one can only get by supporting that Disney whore? Not so cool. Sony, you make your first really femmine product EVER and you have to give the money to support HER? Ugh, at least it's not going to People who Euthanize any Trivial Animals *cough*PETA*COUGHCOUGH*

IE always sucks. NEXT

Guys in general.. *rolls eyes* I'm REALLY REALLY starting to get sick and tired of guys and their bullshit they pull with me. They say they like you, then they say you stink. They act all nice and interested, and then they have girlfriends. Well, guess what? Congraulations, I'm not interested anymore. Not in you, not in anyone. In fact, I was told last night that's what they WANTED. Guess what? I'm not doing this because you wanted it, I'm doing this because I'm DONE.

Hypocrites have always sucked since before I knew the term "Hypocrite." NEXT

So, I found out the reason for my weight gain and the un-success of my weight removal. That's right, stress. A friend of mine who pretty much obsesses over his body asked me last night if I gained most of my weight in my stomach area. I told him I did and he said that was due mostly to stress and not 100% poor diet. I'm not discounting the fact I eat more junk food than I should, but just knowing that diet and exercise alone can't reduce my weight makes me feel pretty relieved. Especially since my most recent ex kept making comments about how I was "overweight" and that all I needed to do was exercise and diet, which he offered NO additional support behind. See, that alone gives a case for hypocrites!

What are my plans? Take more anti stress pills, devote more time to sleep, eat healthier and take multivitimans. Using the PLEASE skills from DBT can help regulate emotions and reduce stress.

FYI, PLEASE =

(treat) Physical iLliness
Exercise
Avoid mood altering substances (i.e. don't abuse drugs or alcohol. They even suggest not using nicotine and caffeine.)
Sleep regularly
Eat a healthy, balanced diet

Yay that was fun. To my American friends, have a Happy Labor Day tomorrow! To my non-American friends, have a good day!

A car that can fold up like the one in The Jetsons.

I don't care if it flies or not, but I just want it to be able to fold up and be as light weight as a brief case.

That or a teleporter that can go ANY where humanly possible.

Yesterday, Jason broke up with me. In all honesty, I'm not that sad about it. The thing I'm the most sad about is just knowing I don't have that "special cuddly connection" anymore. In all honesty, he wasn't really giving me that anyway. He said that I stunk and I said that he was making me paranoid that he wouldn't want to hug on me because I'd start to stink. I mean, even some days where I showered, wore deodorant and even had body spray on, he would still say I stunk.

Besides, the relationship was majorly cutting into my gaming time. I mean, I've only played Dissida for like 8 hours since I got it last week and Disgaea 2 AND Beatles Rock Band are coming out ON THE SAME DAY!!!!

In somewhat video game related news, there's this really cute guy that works at Game Stop. I thought his name was Brandon, but I think that's the manager's name and he's gross. All I know is that this guy seems really nice and is cute, but I don't want to just jump into another relationship. I just think he's a nice guy. Plus, he gave me a promo T-Shirt that only employees are supposed to wear since I'm the only person that's paid off the Limited Edition The Beatles Rock Band in full. I just hate that it's coming out the same day that there's a study session for Genetics. I'm thinking about not going and going to the next one, but it's just a hard choice! Oh well, Rock Band will be there for me after the session is over.

School is going alright. I'm rediscovering why I need to find new friends. There are a few people that I hang out with that are pretty cool, but the rest just suck. I mean, there's one girl that's just a total cold hearted bitch. She dated Jon at one point after we broke up and I think she's dating him again. In all reality, she just has Daddy issues. Oh, and she's a cold hearted bitch.

The people that are in my major aren't too bad, just not the "hang out" type. But, I do suppose that's what phase we really are in right now.

Oh, this is my new favorite website for the moment:

mylifeisaverage.com/

That's all I have for now.

Comments turned off because I just want to vent. Honestly, I don't think this makes much sense, so you can really just move on to the next post. If you do read, thank you. :)

Okay, so I don't get it. Doesn't everyone deserve a second chance? From what I've seen in the past two days, if you cheat on your husband, you don't deserve one.

What happened? Well, let's go back to when I was dating Michael. Basically, Michael had two best friends, one married and one recently divorced. Let's give names to these people... Fred and Joe (Only real name used is Michael's). So, Fred is married to... Rachel and Joe was divorced recently. Okay, so Joe got a job off shore and Fred was unemployed. Joe convinces Fred to work off shore because the money is great. Fred got a great job, but was away from Rachel for two weeks at the time. During these weeks, Joe would hang out with her. Rachel got to the point where she would miss Joe more than her own husband.

To stop this from getting too much longer, Rachel leaves Fred for Joe. Well, I wasn't around for too much longer after that because Michael and I break up around that time as well. Not related to that love triangle, of course.

So, Rachel and Joe got married and Rachel is pregnant now. She had her baby shower today and both Jason and my mom judge the couple so heavily for what happened. Am I saying that Rachel was right for cheating on Fred? No. Am I saying that I'm happy that Rachel and Joe are married? Not at all, in fact, I despise "Joe" very much. Do I think that these people have their right to live their own lives? Yes I do. Do I feel like it's my place to judge them? Not at all.

I just hate how my mom, Jason, and others just feel like they can lash out judgements at these people when they haven't been in a situation like that. Cheating is wrong, but Rachel had enough anguish dealing with the demons of doing something that she'd never do. I really feel like it's not my place to make her feel any worse.

I've never broken up a marriage, but I'm sure it's painful on all ends. In fact, I know it's painful on all ends. But, the outsider is not a better person when they cast judgments on the guilty parties. It just bugs me how closed minded people can be. Jason was telling me that I shouldn't be friends with "Rachel" anymore. Why? Because she did something bad? Then, he should hate me. I've committed sins that could equal up to what she did, but what makes my multiple sins worse than her one?

Ugh, this bugs me so bad...

So, I'm pretty tired of playing with the Apps on Facebook and I want to play a game, but I just don't know what. I got Pop Cutie! Thursday and I like it, but there's only so much of that I can stand before I have to turn it off. Anyway, I think this should be a bullet statement post.

- First and foremost, I have a boyfriend. I've been hanging out with him quite a bit lately.
- I've been working loads more lately.
- Went to my uncle's lake house to visit with my sister, bro-in-law, nephew and their friends. It was alright. Also found out that Chris is much like the late Michael Jackson in respect to publishing his child's photographs.
- I'm still not crazy about previously mentioned bro-in-law
- If I can ever stop splurging/being broke all the time, I will hopefully obtain these games:
Dissidia: Final Fantasy
Disgaea 2: Dark Hero Days
Little Big Planet (PSP)
Scriblenauts
My World, My Way
Idolmaster PSP (If I can find a way to translate it)
- I haven't been really buying much manga lately. By lately, I mean within the past year. I've only been buying With the Light which I highly recommend.
- One day, I want to buy the entire Karin series on DVD in a box set, but I don't want to pay more than $50 for it. Too bad it's $69.99 at FYE.
- I found out that Flight of the Chonchords has come out with season 2 on DVD.
- Honestly, I don't know why everyone though the ending to Samurai Champloo was so odd. I finished that yesterday as well.
- I just looked at my DVD collection and thought I should sell some of it to reduce clutter, as with some of my old video games and some general clutter.

Okay, I think I'm done for now.

Hmm, I forgot what I said for this one in pshyc testing, but the colors make it look different than the monochrome.

I'd say a couple of wasps on a stick with a butterfly in the middle or a mask.

Yes, I have pent up rage. Apparently, that's what it means when the white stuff is part of the overall picture or something like that. Hell if I remember.

Thankfully, no. I was called in for Jury Duty once and that alone was a real pain in the butt. After having to be there at 8 AM, we filled out paper work, then waited until 12 just for the person to dismiss all but 8 people until 2 PM the same day. Then, we were called back that Wednesday and I wasn't picked to sit on the Jury. I think it had something to do with my age and the fact I was in college.

Oh well, the judge was under tons of pressure at that time. He said that there was a hit and run of two elderly people and he gave the defendant the hardest sentence in his career.

So, first off, I made D in Genetics and so I have to retake it. I was 6 points off, but oh well. It was a hard class and it was the first one I took after being off an entire semester. Worse things have happened, so yeah. I'd be lying if I didn't say that I had thoughts of dropping out of college because of this class, but I can't allow one class to get me down in the dumps. Also, I just think I do better in Summer II anyway.

I had more, but I'm so hungry and tired that I just want to sleep. Good night!

Okay, so the title comes from a random video project of a classmate of my sister's from her Senior year. It was based off that book Mythology, the book that makes Greek and Roman Mythology boring! Videos were pretty awesome and my sister and her ex-boyfriend did theirs on Homer's The Odyssey. Grr, I want to post that video.

Speaking of posting videos, well, sorta, I WANT AN LJ THEME BASED OFF THIS!!!!

I spent yesterday sleeping. Like, I was up for maybe 5 hours? Oh well, I got caught up on sleep.

What I've found is that this summer session = not the best time to take a class. What I mean is that I've been finding out more and more about myself and summer school isn't the best time to have self-discovery. Especially when that self-discovery takes away from studies. In all honesty, I'm not surprised with what I've found about myself, just that it takes up time.

In about 6.5 hours, I have a test on operons. Needless to say, this is about the extent of my knowledge of operons: I'M SCREWED!

...This is going to be a FUN week.

And by 'fun,' I mean a pain in the cervix. Yes, it's going to be THAT bad.

So, I had a dream last night that I was discussing the Vocaloids with my friends and they were saying that they were super lame, didn't even sound human, and no good videos existed. I defended it by saying some songs sounded really human and there were some videos with awesome animation.


It's so odd, I haven't really listened to the Vocaloids like I used to in over a week at least. Oh well.

So, what did I do today? Well, we found "Jane Russel"'s home. It turned out the lady up the street had just adopted her from the pound. Oh well, no free dog for you.

They had trouble rounding her up and I'm the only person she gets close to, so I picked her up and she was struggling to get free. Her head hits me square in the nose and she peed all over my leg. I proceeded to bathe after this as my parents took her home.

Then I realized that I was going to get my dad's present out of the car for Father's Day. I hit my head on the car door, then I step in dog piss because my parents didn't clean it up after the damn dog pissed all over my leg.

My nose and head still hurt. I'm not passing out flyers tomorrow because I have an appointment with the therapist that I won't miss.

Okay, so I don't hate everyone (or anyone reading this for that matter) but I'm just so tired and frustrated with SO much right now, that I'm just not in the mood to deal with much of anything right now.

If this problem is solved as easily as the last one was, then one nap later I'll be in business. Good night all.