It'd be really sick if he was. Not only would he have been using you, but he would have just been playing mind games with himself.

Yeah, that would explain lots of problems we did have in our relationship. It never did seem like he fully knew what he wanted and it just irks me that he would do something like that.

I hate to be the voice of reason, but don't let his possible sexuality be something that burns you up. If it's who I'm thinking it is (it might not be), there were plenty of other reasons that it wouldn't work and you have reason to despise/dislike/whatever emotion you feel fits him. I can understand the feeling though, but there are always other reasons that it might not have worked out.

Maybe I'm a bit biased since I'm bisexual The significant other might understand a little bit better than I would since his ex did leave him for another girl.

I think I'm rambling because I'm sleepy, but I'm always here if you ant to talk/bitch/rant.

Well, if you were thinking about douchebag Michael, then that's who I was referring to. There were loads of other issues, I agree, but I just couldn't put this one to rest. The thing that eats me up more than anything is how that it makes me realize after his friend divorced his wife, how pushed aside I was and if it was because he was in love with that friend, then how little I meant to him after how much he meant to me.

I can see how that could be more upsetting since at the time we did break up, it was for another girl. The breakup was caused by Slutty McSlutslut an intern at his work that I could clearly see meant more to him than I did, but it's really just now I'm realizing how much more this friend of his meant than I ever seemed to and THAT just eats me up.

I know I shouldn't let it do this to me, but hopefully I can let it rest.

Being true is the best alternative. People get to really know who you want to be and they will like you for that.

Yeah, I see no reason as to why you should compromise your beliefs to impress other people. I mean, if you do that then the "friends" you make don't really like who you are, just who you pretend to be.

I met someone that was so fake, it was the kind of person you never wanted to be around. Now, it's not bad to be open minded with friends, but just be yourself, they appreciate more people like that.

Yeah, Agreed, a true friend is someone who you can be yourself around. It's the same with relationships really... In the ones that work, both people act who they are.

I'm sorry that it's been a bumpy road for you, but don't worry, love can be found quite a few times :)

Yeah, I guess I didn't make the connection right then and there when I wrote this entry, but it really is. I always try to be who I am, but I've learned that I do have multiple personalties, even thought I try not to. Each one of them is part of who I am, but I think the one that's most true to me is the one I have when I'm talking to my friends.

That's always encouraging, thank you so much :D

Oh dear. If he really is one, then he's just cheating both you and himself during the span of your relationship. Move on dearie! I'm certain you can find a better boyfriend who is straight :)

Staying true to oneself is most important. Good friends are hard to find, but hey, once you do find them, they're hard to let go :D

I'm REALLY trying so hard to move on, but I don't want to do something stupid. I'd love to have another relationship, but I really enjoy having time for me not to worry about someone else and all the people that I at one point thought would make a good person in a relationship have proven themselves wrong, sadly enough. Yeah, hopefully I can find one that's NOT a closet homosexual! I really need to get my gaydar fixed D:

Oh yeah, I totally agree with that! I just hope that the person I told that to will find a good friend soon enough.

OUh, if your [ex]Boyfriend is really homosexuall,
then you've some bad luck with guys =x
..Maybe tell him what botheres you, and when he ticks out,
and is not able to talk with you normally,
then try to relax him or sou..otherwise I dunno what to do.
Sorry, I lack experience.
And findin' REAL friends is not as simple as it seems,
I am glad you find some.

Yeah, it really seems that I do have pretty rotten luck with guys :O Well, I don't really talk to my ex-boyfriend anymore, but I'm sure if I told him about this, he'd go off on me and say that I was stupid (because he never hesitated to tell people they were stupid!)

Thanks for your input tough! If my ex wasn't such a total douchebag, I would try to talk to him about this. Don't worry about experience though, this kind of stuff SUCKS!

Yeah, it isn't, but I have some of the best friends :D

Aw, I'm sorry you're going through that. I can relate to the feeling there. I'm under the impression my ex. is also a closet homo. It's just too obvious not to notice. It kind of hurts my feelings in a way, that he was using me as a cover.

Oh my gosh, someone else going through the same thing! I honestly thought that it was just me being ignorant of who might be a homosexual and who isn't, but when they are in the closet, it is harder to figure out sometimes depending on how far they are in (I think my ex is finding some clothes from the 60's o.O) And being used as a cover blows ass! It makes me feel so cheated and everything.

I hope things will get better for you with that situation ♥

You're not alone on this. Some of us are unfortunate to be the reject in a relationship we can't really do anything to fix. I'm all for gay pride and all, but this type of betrayal hurts because it's something we can't really compete with.

Just because he *may* be a homosexual now doesn't mean that he didn't have some kind of feelings for you back then. Maybe he is now realizing that he likes guys more than girls. Either way, at least you have a chance to find another.

That is true. Being yourself will give you your true friends, at least, that is how I came to get mine. :)

This is very true. I know he had lots of feelings for me at first when his friend was busy with his wife, but after they divorced, it was almost like I didn't exist when Michael and his friend were together. I mean, our very last conversation ended with "I have to go. Tommy is beeping in." and it was RIGHT in the middle of really ending everything. I do have a chance right now, but I just haven't really found anyone that catches my attention as someone that would be good for me.

Yeah, that's how I seem to have gotten my friends too. :D