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13 August 2015 @ 09:37 pm
So I logged on to see if I could find an old picture.  I read some of my old entries and sometimes I was a real jerk.  I hate that and I'm glad that most of you could deal with that, thank you for that :)

Relationship news, Mike and I are still together.  There are some hardships, but we are both in love with each other and will keep going.

Fandom news, Rick and Morty is my new love.  Criminal Case on Facebook is also my jam.

Other news, No longer a Med Tech, I do embroidery now.  Yeah, huge shift, but eventually, I'm going to start my own apparel decorating business.

That's all I feel like posting about.  
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Dialogue from "Meekseeks and Destroy"
27 November 2012 @ 08:55 pm
Due to a massive amount of spam-bots, I'm going to Friends Only.  Tell me a reason why you want to be friends with me (just to prove you aren't a spam-bot!) to be added!  I know it's not fancy or anything, but this journal is mostly for my bitching and moaning/rare updates about life.
30 July 2012 @ 01:30 am

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This has been bugging me for a while.  Sorry, I just wanted to vent it out.  In other news, no work tomorrow, yay!  I worked this weekend, so I get tomorrow off.  Mike came down to see me on Saturday and it was really nice.  So much so I was tempted to go to Arkansas to see him.  The only reason I didn't is because I don't have a change of clothes in my car and I didn't feel like wearing scrubs on my day off driving back to Monroe.  Oh well, I need some sleep anyway.  

Taking the dogs to the vet and getting my tire looked at are on the agenda for tomorrow.  YAY ADULTHOOD.
Life is going pretty well, I'd have to say.  Mike, my new boyfriend, is pretty awesome.  Even though he lives about an hour and a half driving distance from my house.  That's not a big problem since we talk every night.  I just hate that if I visit him on my weekdays off, I get REALLY sick.  When I visit him, I have horrible IBS spasms, one of which I tried to call in sick to work for.  My boss not only bitched me out for calling in, but she INSISTED I magically get well enough for work, even though I threw up my medicine.  I showed up, but I wasn't thrilled to be there.  I don't just call in to call in.  Hell, that was the first time in seven months I called and she STILL bitched me out.  I hear they are always like that when someone tries to call in.  Makes me not even want to call in.  

Don't get me wrong, I do like my job.  I don't like having to deal with stupid stuff like people not ordering stuff correctly, but that's just the hospital for you.  I think the main gripe I have right now is one of the new girls that was hired on.  Her name is Sarah and as far as I'm concerned, she's as competent as a brick.  She seems to always have something to gripe about and needs to be babied through everything.  It's almost like the other girls spend half their shift babying her.  One of them is trying to make her more competent, but Sarah just insists on being shown everything every time she has a question.  I'm not saying there is anything wrong with asking for help, but I am saying there is a limit to how much help to ask for.  

I really hate chatting with her during down time.  She has nothing interesting to say and what she does say sounds stupid.  No matter what it is, she always sounds like a dumb ass.  One time, I was trying to talk about something going on with Anna (Mike's ex wife) up and moving to California with Hope (Mike's Daughter)  Honestly, I just wanted to vent a little bit, but Sarah dominates the conversation with some stupid shit about how her husband's family likes his ex girlfriend over her.  I have NO idea how that was even related, nor do I have any idea why it took her half of break to talk about it, but it was annoying. 

Sometimes, it feels like I'm becoming dumber when I see her too often.  Not even trying to be rude, but I SERIOUSLY work with some really ditsy girls in the lab.  One of the ditzes was nearly fired today because a test had to be put off for a day.  Basically, she didn't tell anyone to run kinetics in the back on a specimen in lab, nor did she draw the kinetics.  When I found out about it, I had to cancel the test because the drug was being given and we couldn't draw a trough and the nurse on duty didn't want to use blood from 4 AM for kinetics.  This was not her first time doing something like this.  I wrote an incidence report and put it on the lab director's desk for her to see first thing in the morning.  Her time has been reduced, and she will not work evening shift at all.  I feel bad for the girl because I like her, but she's a horrible phleb.

Honestly, between visiting/chatting with Mike, working, and recovering from an iron deficiency, I haven't had much time or energy for much.  I've been watching Urusei Yatsura when I get a chance.  I've been doing pretty well, even though I have so much to deal with at my job, but I'm learning and doing the best that I can.
17 January 2012 @ 01:23 am
I think I'm falling in love again.  Not the fake "I'm fooling myself into thinking you're in love so you don't feel like a whore when you sleep with them," but the "I really don't care either way if I have any kind of physical relations with this guy, just as long as he keeps treating me the way he does, I will follow him to the ends of the Earth."  He gives me the feeling of wanting to better myself.  Not bettering myself to impress him, but to better myself so that I don't have to try to impress him later on because he will have never failed to be impressed by me.  I don't mean this in just the physical sense (even though I am working on that!) but I meant that on the emotional and mental front too.  This feeling is exciting and terrifying at the same time.  I hope the fear goes away though.
17 January 2012 @ 12:48 am
That the world they live in will be a kinder and more accepting world than the one I grew up and live in.  It's kinder and more accepting in many ways than it was before, but I just hope the trend will continue in that direction. 
What is your dream for your children?
31 December 2011 @ 11:51 pm

It was a good year for me!  Here are my top 5 moments in the year:

5. Graduation
4. Going a Gym, losing 30 pounds and KEEPING IT OFF
3. Last Thursday Night
3. Celebrating 's birthday 
1. GETTING MY JOB!  Without it, 2 to 4 wouldn't have been able to happen

  HAPPY NEW YEAR!  (Shut up, I'm one of the last ones to have it!)

15 December 2011 @ 01:40 am
I'm not sure if that's an accurate term for what's going on with me, but I just felt like writing about my physical body.  I don't really write about it that often, but let me start off by saying that I feel like I'm starting to have a healthy outlook on it.

Kasey heavily encouraged me to start working out.  It wasn't so much that it was him alone, but I was becoming frustrated that I had gained about 70 pounds in 3 years.  I'm not sure if anyone else has ever had a dramatic increase/decrease in weight like that, but it's frustrating!  I mean, dramatic weight loss can be just as unhealthy as dramatic weight gain.  The most frustrating part about the weight gain was the fact that I had to start shopping at the plus sized stores.  I mean, they have some really cute stuff there, but I was in the in between stage where most of them didn't fit quite right.  

Once I was hired at the hospital, I found that I was running out of excuses and running into reason to start working out.  I had several motivators to work out.  One of the biggest ones was being able to cosplay.  Don't get me wrong, some girls can do a GREAT job with the cosplay and are bigger than me, but they also make their own costumes.  I've found that ordering a costume means they will make it a REALLY tight fit.  I do need to learn how to use a sewing machine, but I just haven't been able to figure it out.  Some people may find this to be something really silly, but I'm really self conscious of things looking "Clingy" to me.  My mom used to give me so much flack for that growing up and it's still there.  

The more important reasons I started working out are health related.  My family has a predisposition to Type 2 Diabetes.  I'm sorry, but I've learned so much in school about Type 2 Diabetes and it sounds awful.  Glaucoma, Gangrene, and Glucometers do not sound like any fun to deal with!  That's not even really getting really down and dirty into what Diabetes entails.  Also, I see patients that manage their Diabetes very poorly, so it can turn very serious if managed poorly.   One thing I really need to do for this is kick the soda habit, but I've been trying to do this for over ten years, so I'm not even going there now.  I can only handle so many lifestyle changes at once!  Also, regular exercise can lessen my GI problems!  Yay!

Here comes the question.  I will never be "small."  No matter how much I work out, no matter how many diets I go on, I will never become "model thin."  When I came to this realization, I also realized that this fact did not make me sad, upset, frustrated nor did I want to quit working out.  I realized that due to my bone structure, I will always have big hips and thighs.  

What I have come to realize is that I need to keep my goals realistic and take pride in what I have.  I've also become more and more fine with having no romantic interest in my life.  It's been so long that I've almost forgotten how it all works.